Debbie Downer Day

I didn't think the whole broken/not broken scale was going to get me as down as it did. I've been working really hard and I feel like it was for nothing. Why would the scale say I gained weight? Or better yet lost it then gained it and then lost it within seconds. Now the scale has pretty much kicked the bucket and stopped working all together so I don't know what to think. It's frustrating because I really want to meet my goal before my brother in law's wedding. I dyed my hair in an attempt to make myself feel better to no avail. My kids are also driving me nuts beating on each other and Corinne won't let me put her down without screaming at me. She finally cut her tooth and I dunno if it's causing her pain anymore but she is super clingy. I feel like locking myself in my room away from them especially Gavin. The child won't be quiet! Their goal most days is to see if they can drive me crazy and it works most of the time. I feel down because I'm getting discouraged about my diet. I don't know what to eat half the time so I eat the same things over and over at nauseum in hopes that I'll lose weight and then when it doesn't happen I don't know what to do. Spencer can tell I'm discouraged and was asking what I felt like eating and it just kept making me mad. I don't mean to take it out on him I'm just frustrated. Why is it that there's some people that can eat whatever they like and still be skinny and then there's people like me that they even look at a chocolate bar or ice cream and gain a couple pounds. It's not fair! All I want is to be healthier and look and feel better but all I end up being is angry at my fat body and flat butt. Vent over sorry I'm just not in a good mood.