Day 12

I realized I'm writing blogs every day just so I can keep track of which day I'm on. It's a good way to do it and I can get out what I'm feeling on a certain day. The second workout isn't getting any easier but I can make it through it without taking breaks which is good. In the beginning of all this I could barely get through the first circuit of cardio so I'd say that's progress. I haven't been sleeping well lately which I think definitely doesn't help so we ordered a memory foam mattress and it's set to arrive today which is exciting. I can't wait to get to bed at a reasonable hour and enjoy my bed for once. Lately I've felt like I'm sleeping in a sling and it's so uncomfortable. I woke up this morning sore, a good sign that the second workout is working. My delts are the worst, my shoulders and everything from all the planks she has you do are killer but it gives me hope that I will get strong enough in those areas to do a push up. I sat for a long time this morning in the quiet contemplating skipping my workout. Part of me justified it really well but the part that wants to lose weight and get in shape overpowered. I keep telling Spencer I just can't be fat and out of shape anymore. I really have a goal that before we have anymore kids I am going to get in shape and stay in shape even through my next pregnancy. It's sad that the one goal I always have is to not let myself get over 200 lbs with my pregnancy and that's only 30 lbs gained in every one. If I can get myself down to 140 lbs before getting pregnant again and then only top out at 170 ( or less) then I would be ecstatic. Keep cheering me on! I need it! My 2 or 3 followers lol.