My Sugar Addiction . . .

Today is one of those days where I really want a do-over. Mainly because I'm moody and every word and sound that comes out of my kids and husband's mouth grates on my last nerve. Why you may ask? Because I'm kind of detoxing off of sugar, which is like taking away a drug addict's cocaine. It's BAD! It's especially bad because I have insulin resistance which is a pre-cursor to diabetes so I need to lower my sugar intake because it's the only way to prevent me from getting diabetes and to help me lose weight. I remember the last time I did this and I felt like a psycho and I'm feeling it again. It's so frustrating! I get headaches, I'm irratible and I CRAVE like you wouldn't believe. Some days I feel like I'd do anything for a donut or some chocolate but I try not to give in or if I do I have barely any so I don't lose control. I am a bonafide Sugar Addict, and the first step to beating the addiction is admitting you have a problem. I am not like most people, I can sit down with a pack of oreos and eat the whole thing in one sitting, mainly cuz I have no self control. I have told Spencer on many occasions if he wants to have anything like that, be it soda, cookies, ice cream then don't bring it in the house because it'll disappear really fast. I dont' know why but I just can't. BUT there is a light at the end of this tunnel, once I'm off the sugar I do a lot better about not having it. It's just that initial detox that kills me. Everything that's low sugar or no sugar makes me angry like it's the food's fault for not having sugar in it. It makes no sense that an inanimate object like this would make me so mad but it does. So for now I will just drink more water and eat my sugar free foods and hopefully in the next week or so my body will get used to the idea that I am not going to be eating much sugar for my own health. And maybe I won't kill my kids and husband . . . Maybe. Saying lots of prayers today because I feel HORRIBLE.